Long time no blog.

19Dec10

It has been a while since I have written here. Well that isn’t really true. I have several unfinished posts that I have written but I have been interrupted midstream by a baby calling out for me. Such is life with a baby I guess. Facebook updates are more my speed these days. Everything in my life lately seems to happen in short little bursts when I get the odd break.  Things have been okay. Really I feel like I am surviving more than anything. I love my little girl to bits and she brings a lot of laughter into my life but I am feeling pretty isolated and missing my community. I have whined a bit about this in the past and the general comments I have received is that the community is there I just have to ask for it. And I suppose it is… sort of. It just takes so much planning and scheduling and organization to arrange community and I am already feeling far too overwhelmed with planning and scheduling things for my family. I know this is selfish.. but I just don’t have the energy to track down my community and yet I am desperately missing it.

Luckily I have found a group of women in this baby group I go to that I like. I tried to go to baby groups when Judah was little but the dynamics in the groups always drove me a little nuts. I mean really… it does getting boring talking about diapers, poo, and snot ALL THE TIME. I like the Mothering Touch crew though. It is full of interesting women with lives that extend beyond their children. I am trying to reach out there and make some more connections with people that are a similar situation as me. I certainly notice the feelings of isolation grow again when I am unable to make it to this group for a few weeks.

I am very happy for the holidays. Having the boy around… More parties.. more socialization. I am hoping seeing some friends will feed my soul a little and carry me through these dark days and out the other side. And we are going away in January which will be a nice lift in all of this day in day out “feed/change/play/ repeat” thing that my life has become.  I know someday when I am too busy.. too stressed… and have too much going on I will look back on these days with fondness. You would figure I would have gotten over the whole “grass is always greener” thing by now. But there you have it. Babblings from a reluctant housewife.

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